Tuesday, 31 January 2012

SPEAKING TEST

Done this shit before,when I'm still in KPTM KL but today I've to do it again and I was like blahblahblah. Seriously I hate Speaking Test or as known as Group Discussion. I'm taking this test with Miss Ema and the worst thing is,I got the so-so topic. I'm out of idea when Miss Ema ask me to talk about the topic,argh fuck fuck fuck.


I hope the marks won't dissapoint me.

FEVER FOREVER

I have no idea what the hell is wrong with the immunity of my body because I feel like I easily fall sick. I meant,I easily get infected to flu & fever. I think last week I already had my fever,cough,sorethroat & flu but too bad I got this shit again yesterday. I woke up and my nose bleeding like hell,fuck fuck fuck. Seriously I hate nose bleeding,its like euuuuw~


I thought it just a normal nose bleeding but my body temperature gettin' higher and the warden took me to the clinic,I just came back from the clinic & I got lost of medicine to eat. Thank God the doctor didn't said anything,he just said thats normal fever but I have to drink lots of plain water because I'll might get dehydration if I didn't do so. 


No worry guys,its just a normal high fever. I'm still alive.

INVISIBLE



Nothing intresting to write here but it would be cool if I left some notes before I go. Where I wanna go? Secret Garden,nah I don't know. Here some notes for you,this is your routine so you've to do it everyday.


-don't sleep too late & don't wake up late when you got class.
-tidy up your bed.
-have a baby shower every morning & evening.
-don't forget to take your lunch & dinner on time.
-eat lots & lots of food,including vegetables.
-make sure your room is clean & neat.
-if you're lazy to go out & you're hungry,just pour hot water on the maggie.
-do all your assignment & submit it on time.
-cuddle the bolster when you're gonna sleep.
-keep all our snapbacks tidy on the wall.


I know you won't find me,thats why I left all this notes here so that you can keep doing this routine everyday. I'll be watching you from here,goodluck baby dinosour.

I'LL FIGHT FOR MY LOVE



Kinda sad when I read your latest update on your blog,feelin' like commit suicide right after done reading that. If you were in my shoe,you'll feel the same way. But I'm not gonna put you in my shoe,let me the one who feel this shit. I won't hurt you but I know I already hurt you for a several times before but today you totally kill me with that kinda post on your blog. 


I've been crying for 3 days and I can't focus on what I'm gonna do,if you feel I'm cruel because I hurt your feeling but think and ask yourself first. Why do you accept me in your life for the second time? Why? Why? Why? If you know you'll leave me behind after she come back,why you accept me? Why? Why? It really make me sad because you know that I'm gonna love you more than you'll ever know.


Remember all the things that we had done together,ups and downs,sad and happy moments. Do you still expect me to leave you when she come back? No way! You're mine,forever mine eventhough I know you're waiting for her and I know I'm just your back-up plan now. Everyone keep thinking I'm idiot because having a you but you keep waiting for her and you'll leave me after she come back. Do I care what everyone gonna say?


This is me. This is my life. This my love-life. And you're mine,forever. If I lose you,I'll make sure you die in a tragedy so that she'll never have you back. I'm crazy? Yes,I am. Thats all,thank you and I love you.

I'LL FIGHT FOR MY LOVE



Kinda sad when I read your latest updated on your blog,feelin' like commit suicide right after done reading that. If you were in my shoe,you'll feel the same way. But I'm not gonna put you in my shoe,let me the one who feel this shit. I won't hurt you but I know I already hurt you for a several times before but today you totally kill me with that kinda post on your blog. 


I've been crying for 3 days and I can't focus on what I'm gonna do,if you're feel I'm cruel because I hurt your feeling but think and ask yourself first. Why do you accept me in your life for the second time? Why? Why? Why? If you know you'll leave me behind after she come back,why you accept me? Why? Why? It really make me sad because you know that I'm gonna love you more than you'll ever know.


Remember all the things that we had done together,ups and downs,sad and happy moments. Do you still expect me to leave you when she come back? No way! You're mine,forever mine eventhough I know you're waiting for her and I know I'm just your back-up plan now. Everyone keep thinking I'm idiot because having a you but you keep waiting for her and you'll leave me after she come back. Do I care what everyone gonna say?


This is me. This is my life. This my love-life. And you're mine,forever. If I lose you,I'll make sure you die in a tragedy so that she'll never have you back. I'm crazy? Yes,I am. Thats all,thank you and I love you.

Thursday, 26 January 2012

2 YEARS 1 MONTH



Happy 2 Years 1 Month Anniversary,may God always bless us.


I don't know what had happened between us last night but our situation and our converstion kinda dull,for no reason. I hope we gonna be fine as soon as possible because I really hate this kind of things. No worry,I won't blame you for what had happened lastnight. It's all my fault,you never doing anything wrong in our relationship but I'm the one who always spoilt everything. 


Lastnight was not the first time,we've been through this situation several times before and yeah we're still fine until now. Maybe we had a crash-communication lastnight,ahhh forget it. It's gonna be a biggest lie if I say I'm fine but the truth is I'm sad,effin' sad. I can't sleep lastnight and I'm having fever today,great aite? Nevermind,this is not important and I'm gonna be fine later. 


By the way,congratulation for already making a decision for your life. I know you can because you're cool,you always said that. Even you keep your decision as your secret now,I don't mind as long as I know you already make up your mind. Everyone have secret,so do I but I already told you all my secret because there's nothing to hide from you anymore. Yours is yours. Mine is yours. Get it? 


Remember this,I'll always love you no matter what gonna happen between us. Sorry for not giving you a wake up call this morning,I'm out of credit.


Lots of love,a million of kisses and a gazilion of hugs. I love you Dinosour.

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

PLEASE CHOOSE

Remember this? 
"Hidup ni kena pandai buat pilihan."


I used to said that to you aite? I just want you to learn how to make a right decision for your own life,I know you hate makin' decision but in this situation you MUST make a decision. Or else,it will end up just like that. You want to end everything you have been build for all this while? I don't think so. 


Goodluck for this part,I'm waiting for your answer. Choose one only or I'll back off.

19th BIRTHDAY

Today is already 25th January 2012 and my birthday is on 19th January 2012,nothing much to say just a simple wishful wish from myself,Happy 19th Birthday ELLJHN. Don't ask me what is my wish because I still don't know,what is the purpose of wishing something or anything on our birthday. So,there's no wish and and and I'm still craving for cake,too bad no one gave me cake for my birthday this year. Am I too old to receive any birthday cake for anyone? Shit,I'm sad. 


The special present I got for my 19th birthday is,DIY birthday card by DNYJHN. It is awesome! He told me 3 days before my birthday about it and when it come to my birthday,I was like O-M-G! The card look so effin' cute,with a picture of me and him.Thats the only present that I got for my 19th birthday and I don't mind about it at all,but I mind about the birthday cake. Still craving for it,damn! 


To all my friends,thanks for the all birthday wishes. You guys rock!

Thursday, 12 January 2012

CRAVING






This is so not cool,seriously. I'm craving for sweet foods like cake,ice cream,macaroons and cookies for no reason. Maybe I didn't eat those thing for quite a long time and thats make me craving like hell. Kinda hard for me when I'm here at Kuantan and I can't find those things that I'm craving for,it would be better if there's a bakery or maybe a cake shop or an ice cream shop in front of my hostel so that I won't craving no more.


This is real,someone please send me those things to my hostel. You know what is craving right? Fuck yeah,I need those things now!

NIKE STEFAN JANOSKI



Awesome right? Yeah I know that,thats why I'm gonna have this pair of fuckin' awesome Nike Stefan Janoski soon. Just wait for it! Seriously I really love its colour,it suits me. The colour also suit with my Charlotte Hornets snapback,oh shit this gonna be so fuckin' awesome! DNYJHN already bought it last week and I'm envy with him. He went to college and wore it,damn he looked so cute with this pair of Stefan Janoski. Nevermind,I'll buy it later and fo'sho I'm gonna wear it everywhere I go. Stefan Janoski,wait for to grab you ya? I love you.

BACKSTAB SEASON



What a sad life of me when this fuckin' 2012,I got backstabbed by 3 or 4 little devils and I was like WHAT HE FUCK? I just don't know what the hell that I had done to them,I don't think this is karma. Yeah karma is like what goes around,come back around. Before this,everything was fine. They're like my friends that I share everything but,everything that I thought were false. They're devils,real life little devils. 


Nehhh nevermind,they still don't know that I already know what they're talking bad behind my back. I just keep it to myself and when the right time comes,I'll make sure they'll suffer. You girls better watch out,bitch.